Sianz, so long never post le. Also do not know that anyone seeing this blog loh. I know that you still love him but just why do not want to patch with him leh. Find someone more suitable to you than me. I think that you are my suitable ex-stead le but it maybe not to you. I do not know why that i will jealous when you get close to anybody in our class loh. You had done so many hurtful thing to me but i do not know why that i still love you. Everybody tell me that i changed after i stead with you but i do not think so. I would rather the time rewind back to the day before you came in my school. Than a lot of things would not change. But i still want you back...

Wah sianz leh, kena sent back home yesterday cause sick and not feeling well. Today still sick than in the end never go school. But i know you yesterday did not go school and i am very worried. Today you went to school means you have been better. Sianz for me still fever. Everytime look back at last time the messages i just feel like crying. Maybe to you is over as you had him le...

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What actually should i do now? After i lose you, i feel that i am like a lion without its cub, a merlion without water, a person without the most important item in his life. But i think using my brain, that i should give you up but my body still wants you as my body remember the time when we are together, the laughter you make, the things we did together and everything etc. I just want you back now, not anytime later. I may look normal outside but inside my heart i am hurting painfully as i remember the time you were beside me. If time can go back i will want to go back to the time before secondary 2 camp. But i will remind me that during the time we quarrelled. Seeing you now, making my heart very pain.

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Sianz leh, don't know what happen to me today. Body aching and like got a bit fever and sore throat leh. If you now just say, 'are you okay?' than i will be very happy.

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Sometimes i really feel that you very flirt and everything but after everytime i can't stop thinking of you. My heart still loves you but i can't stay you. Today i finally talk to you after a few days but it feels like thousands of years. Maybe i can have you but not your heart now, or even before we break. But now i want you and your heart, both. I still love you after so much thing had happen. Darling sherlynn, i really want you back now as i just want to hear 'i love you' from you. My heart is aching once and everytime i think of you. My left shoulder and whole body is aching. Hope to hear from you say,'are you okay'. But most of all, my heart is most pain of all while losing you now and then.

Sorry for all the mistake i done, i really repent le.

The national day parade ticket i get today, i don't know i should give who. Sherlyn just broken and maybe that can make her happy. Sherlynn, the girl i love. Ming jie, my ex god son, gan er zi.

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Sianz, life is boring. Today never see you than now feeling sad in robotics class. Today got home economics than pratical, really feel like eating the thing you have cook. Comfirm plus chop very nice the loh.Especially is you cook the spagettie loh. Got worried as why you never come, someone told me that you skip school not sick. I thought what had happenned. Now you are outside, please be careful as i am really quite worried. I am very easy angry this few days after losing you. But i got try to endure as you had tell me to hold on to it sometimes. But now without you than i very fast dulan le but once i thought of what you had said to me than i start to cool down. Sometimes i think of you too much about me and you the memories than i just jump in to the pool to cool down or not i really cannot take it anymore longer le. I really want you back, not hope is want, i knoe i had done something wrong but i am really repentant.

I love you darling, all along.

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Life is boring. It is not worth living. Now piles of homework waiting for me to complete. As usual, everyday thinking of her no matter wat. I love her as usual. Everything in life now of day will let me relate to the memories i had with her. But all were memories, i want it now. She can help me in everything. Studies, life and make it interesting a lot, hundred times more when i am alone. Waiting for her all along. Thinking to forget the past with her but simply just can't. Things were not so easy, she were lots of my first. Stronger were not to use on me as i just can't forget her so easily.

Darling, i lov3e you as how i did. Muackz, emoing and drinking wine and smoking now.

Hahax saw one of my brother the friend the friend stead with one of my school classmate. Saw them on the bus.

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What is love? Love to me is just sacrifie, if you truely love her than even if she love someone else you will still wait but you will want her find someone better than you the. No matter what, hope that you two will patch and more lovable after a small quarrel?! It is easy to let go but hard to forget the past memories with her loh. Now still very pain. My sholder and back all very pain. If i can just hear from you say ,"are you okay" to me not my brother than my pain will all gone le but i know that you will not forgive me le. God bless you this two, couple, to patch. Maybe you patch le i also wont know the. Who will tell me?!

With her, i may be still worthful but now without her i am totally worthless. Nobody likes me at all. I got think about it before, but i change and change but nobody accepts it. I had save and help my friends and take the crime. But it is not appreciated at all, can't or hear the word, "thanks " after i had helped them. Life is meaningless without her as i have really nothing to do. Darling, i really repent le. I really still love you, i want you back. I really really dont want to lose you. As like this far end road, i hope i will be there waiting for you to accept me.

I hope to have you back for even a single day or moment. You are my first true love. But what you had lose is lost. But i still hope to have you back.

Darling, i love you like normal. I love you to the max. Muackz.

Darling, i really dont want to lose you at all. i really dont want to quarrel with you. I love you so much so how i possible control and quarrel with you. Darling, hope things will be better for us and we will not quarrel. I love you to the max luhs, muackz.

Darling, i really want to patch with you. I dont want to lose you. I love you. Muackz.

Darling, I really hope that you will forgive me. I is love you the loh. I don't love angeline at all lah. I really hope that you will give me another chance.

Darling, I really love you. I love you, muackz.





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Sianz at home nothing to do, my blister still bleeding and swollen, very hard to walk around loh. Now waiting darling to wake up as they yesterday nite late sleep. I yesterday whole nite also cannot sleep loh. Very tired loh but dont feel like sleeping liao le cause maybe later going to find darling by the way. Darling piggy, wat time u will wake up leh, wait for you 10 hours le leh. Hahax but nvm i don't mind to wait for you darling.

Darling, i love you. Muackz

Wah sianz sia, tonight darling, joey and ming jie toning at my house. But in the end 1.30am they go back le. Very sad sia, i knoe under my block very sianz loh. Regret to call them come to my house as i had cause them a lot of trouble loh. Nvm bah hope they will forgive me. They say it is not my fault but i still think is my fault loh. But next time they come, i confirm will snatch the room for them the. Sianz now my blister still very pain loh.

Hahax sorry darling and fellows, darling i love you, muackz.

Wah sianz sia, my foot got blister(dont know how to spell) cause yesterday i go play soccer at the soccer court bare foot. Now dam pain loh, cause must use needle to pierce a hole than make the blood flow out. Maybe tonight toning with my darling and few friends and drink beer play card bah. See how first loh.

Darling, i love you. Muackz

Wah sianz sia, first time blogging not bad lah and even blogging in school leh. I don't really know how to use a blog leh. Today at school not bad bah. Better in 3D animation class le but in the end still kena sent down by art teacher cause of leaving the classroom without permission.

Darling, i really don't want quarrel or cold war with u lah. I is love you the leh. Okie?

Darling, i love you muackz, i really want to be with you.