Sianz, so long never post le. Also do not know that anyone seeing this blog loh. I know that you still love him but just why do not want to patch with him leh. Find someone more suitable to you than me. I think that you are my suitable ex-stead le but it maybe not to you. I do not know why that i will jealous when you get close to anybody in our class loh. You had done so many hurtful thing to me but i do not know why that i still love you. Everybody tell me that i changed after i stead with you but i do not think so. I would rather the time rewind back to the day before you came in my school. Than a lot of things would not change. But i still want you back...

Wah sianz leh, kena sent back home yesterday cause sick and not feeling well. Today still sick than in the end never go school. But i know you yesterday did not go school and i am very worried. Today you went to school means you have been better. Sianz for me still fever. Everytime look back at last time the messages i just feel like crying. Maybe to you is over as you had him le...

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What actually should i do now? After i lose you, i feel that i am like a lion without its cub, a merlion without water, a person without the most important item in his life. But i think using my brain, that i should give you up but my body still wants you as my body remember the time when we are together, the laughter you make, the things we did together and everything etc. I just want you back now, not anytime later. I may look normal outside but inside my heart i am hurting painfully as i remember the time you were beside me. If time can go back i will want to go back to the time before secondary 2 camp. But i will remind me that during the time we quarrelled. Seeing you now, making my heart very pain.

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Sianz leh, don't know what happen to me today. Body aching and like got a bit fever and sore throat leh. If you now just say, 'are you okay?' than i will be very happy.

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Sometimes i really feel that you very flirt and everything but after everytime i can't stop thinking of you. My heart still loves you but i can't stay you. Today i finally talk to you after a few days but it feels like thousands of years. Maybe i can have you but not your heart now, or even before we break. But now i want you and your heart, both. I still love you after so much thing had happen. Darling sherlynn, i really want you back now as i just want to hear 'i love you' from you. My heart is aching once and everytime i think of you. My left shoulder and whole body is aching. Hope to hear from you say,'are you okay'. But most of all, my heart is most pain of all while losing you now and then.

Sorry for all the mistake i done, i really repent le.

The national day parade ticket i get today, i don't know i should give who. Sherlyn just broken and maybe that can make her happy. Sherlynn, the girl i love. Ming jie, my ex god son, gan er zi.

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Sianz, life is boring. Today never see you than now feeling sad in robotics class. Today got home economics than pratical, really feel like eating the thing you have cook. Comfirm plus chop very nice the loh.Especially is you cook the spagettie loh. Got worried as why you never come, someone told me that you skip school not sick. I thought what had happenned. Now you are outside, please be careful as i am really quite worried. I am very easy angry this few days after losing you. But i got try to endure as you had tell me to hold on to it sometimes. But now without you than i very fast dulan le but once i thought of what you had said to me than i start to cool down. Sometimes i think of you too much about me and you the memories than i just jump in to the pool to cool down or not i really cannot take it anymore longer le. I really want you back, not hope is want, i knoe i had done something wrong but i am really repentant.

I love you darling, all along.